My family has gone through many
crises over the years.
I look back and remember when
my cousin was in a bad motorcycle accident. After that, during my high school
years and college years, I watched all of my grandparents go through medical
issues and ultimately losing three of my grandparents during high school and my
fourth grandparent during college. We spent many days caring for my
grandparents, visiting them, taking them to appointments, and many days spent
in the hospital for a few of them. These were hard years, but I wouldn't change
any of the time I spent with my grandparents. I miss them so much. They were my
cheerleaders and I knew they loved me 100%.
In more recent years, I have watched
my immediate family be affected by divorce. I have watched the ripple effects
of hurt relationships. It has hurt on deep, emotional levels.
Then the world experienced a
pandemic in 2020 and everyone has been affected at some level because of that.
Life has been hard.
Just a few weeks ago, another
relative ended up in the hospital for an unexpected medical issue. This
relative has a long road ahead and it is unknown what that road will look like.
This was completely unexpected (not that we expect crises...). It was
unexpected because it was a person I would have went to if I had a need,
someone who has been there for my family over the years. It shook me on a
different level. It reminded me that we are all human and nobody knows the time
we have left or what might happen to us or to those we love. It reminded me
that life is short. It reminded me to live life to the fullest.
I don't share all of this with
you because I want you to feel sorry for me. That is, honestly, the last thing
I want. (I do, however, appreciate hearing that people care!) I share this
because life is hard and I don't want to sugarcoat that fact. And I also want
to draw on the fact that God is good, in the midst of life is hard. And God's
strength will shine through my weakness.
You see, in the end, this is not at
all about me, but about God, and about how He has carried me through it all.
Lessons I have learned and am
working on: Life is hard. God is good.
As I mentioned above, this has been
a strong theme. The VBS theme in 2019 was "Life is wild. God is
good." with the focus on one of the days being "Life is hard. God is
Good." It was something I needed to hold on to, just as much as those
kiddos who attended.
In my weakness, God is strong.
2 Corinthians 12:9 says: "But
he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in
weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that
the power of Christ may rest upon me."
Worship in the midst.
There are so many scriptures about
worship in the Bible. We are called to rejoice always (1Thessalonians 5:16), to
enter into His gates with thanksgiving and His courts with praise (Psalm 100),
and more. We can fight the spiritual wars through worship, worship in the form
of prayer, song, etc...
Job, in the midst of trials, still
blessed God, "And he said, '...The Lord
gave, and the Lord has taken away;
blessed be the name of the Lord.'"
We see many other passages about
worship:
"Not only that, but we rejoice
in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance
produces character, and character produces hope" Romans 5:3-4
"I will bless the Lord at all times; his praise shall
continually be in my mouth." Psalm 34:1
A couple songs come to mind,
too:
Praise You in This Storm - Third Day
I Choose to Worship - Rend Collective
I will praise you through the fire
Through the storm and through the flood
There is nothing that could ever steal my song
In the valley you are worthy
You are good when life is not
You will always and forever be my song
Oh, we choose you, Lord
In the middle of our dark
Over every fear, over every lie
Oh, we stand our ground
We make our choice
You're our sun in the darkness
We choose you now
Be grateful.
1 Thessalonians 5:17 says to
"give thanks in all circumstances." Not to give thanks for all
our circumstances, but in all of them. Meaning that even in the midst of
trials and crises, we can still thank God because He is a good God, and He is
always with us.
Show up.
Some of the most meaningful moments
have been when people have unexpectedly shown up for our family. I have also
been blessed when I have listened to the Holy Spirit's promptings and God has
called me to show up for others.
It may look like praying for someone
God lays on your heart. This seems so simple, but I believe it is so powerful.
Over the last year especially, I have been working on listening to the Holy
Spirit's prompting. One of the ways I've found is to just simply pray when I start thinking about someone. Sometimes
it is just a simple whispered prayer, other times I have felt the need to do
some real battle for someone in prayer.
A few weeks back, I was heading to
the grocery store with my mom. I had a family on my mind. A day or so before, I
heard on the radio that one way you can help a mom/family is to just say,
"I'm at the store. What can I grab for you?" instead of saying,
"If you ever need anything, let me know." I felt like that was what I
was supposed to do just that in this situation. I said as much to my mom and
she said she had felt the same thing on the drive in. It was amazing how the
Holy Spirit prompted us both. While there have been many times I have pushed
that still small voice aside, I am glad I listened that time and am learning to
listen more.
People over things
This is something that our family
has said for quite a while. But it is also something I need to remind myself of
over and over again. When things, to-do lists, schedules all seem to take
priority, we need to re-shift our priorities, back to God first, but then to
the people He has placed in our lives.
To God Be the Glory.
"So, whether you eat or drink,
or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God." 1 Corinthians 10:31
Walking the Christian life is not
easy, no one ever promised it would be. In fact, in James 1, it
says "Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet
trials of various kinds." It doesn't say if, but when, for
we will face trials. But I like how this passage continues... "for
you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness..."
May we be steadfast in Him. May our
strength come from Him. May He get the glory. May our lives be a testimony of
who He is and may we point others to Jesus in all we do and say.
God is good.